Busy.

Hmmm..Been a while since I’ve had time to write in my blog, busy alot with real life, even when I have free I’m usually playing FFXI..

Got to make some time to put my thoughts together and write stuff.

Ignorance.

Today at work, I was trolling KI forums(Killing Ifrit) at my lunch break, and came across and interesting thread..It’s an old thread but anyway, I stumbled into some interesting facts about people I thought they were more open minded and not so much ignorant.

The thread:

http://www.killingifrit.com/forums.php?m=posts&q=128189&d=0

My thought of this whole thread was “WTF?”, I was stupid for a moment to forget that there’s so many retarded, ignorant and stupid people that still exist.

I mean, they’re constantly making fun of my religion(Not always targetting me, in general.), and what I believe in, repeating words like “Durka durka Muhammed Jihad”(Least get the spelling right, durrr.), yeah I know it’s a famous word from the best movie ever blah blah, but how would it feel if you had someone always making fun of what you believe in?
Wouldn’t piss you off? You respect people expecting to be respected in return, but appearantly it doesnt happen that way, half people don’t care about religion or god or prophets, so they think it’s OK to make jokes about it and insult other peoples beliefs, and it’s NOT.

I’m not writing this to make people feel sorry for me or respect me, I don’t give a fuck if you do or don’t, but before you judge people by what they believe in or what they do, or say retarded thoughtless comments, just stop for a moment and look at yourself and what your people did.

I’ve been called a terrorist, camel jockey, rug head, sand nigger etc..It never really bothered me at all, but it hurts the most when this kind of stuff comes out from people who you thought they are good people.

Meh, whatever..This subject always ticks me off and gets me worked up over nothing.

Bokurano – Uninstall

“Uninstall” by: Chiaki Ishikawa.
It’s a nice song Xonz sent me the other day, didn’t know which anime it belonged to till he told me it’s the opening of Bokurano(Haven’t watched it yet, been too lazy to watch anime lately -.-). If you didn’t watch Gundam SeeD or listen to its OSTs,Chiaki is the vocal half of the popular duo See-Saw (the other half being Yuki Kajiura). Although her voice is superb, most of her songs outside of See-Saw have been at best above average. So it comes as quite a surprise that Uninstall managed to pull it off without Yuuka’s composing.

Anyway, here’s the lyrics for it(Took it off some website):

UNINSTALL
Ishikawa Chiaki

ano toki saikou no REAL ga mukou kara ai ni kita nowa
bokura no sonzai wa konna ni tanjun dato warai ni kitanda
mimi wo fusaidemo ryoute wo surinukeru shinjitsu ni madou yo
hosoi karada no doko ni chikara wo irete tateba ii?

UNINSTALL UNINSTALL
kono hoshi no musuu no chiri no hitotsu dato
ima no boku niwa rikai dekinai
UNINSTALL UNINSTALL
osore wo shiranai senshi no youni
furumau shikanai UNINSTALL

bokura no muishiki wa katte ni togisumasarete-iku you da
BED no shita no rinkaku no nai kehai ni
kono me ga hiraku toki wa kokoro nado nakute
nanimokamo kowashite shimau hageshisa dake
shizuka ni kiete-yuku kisetsu mo erabenai to iu no nara

UNINSTALL UNINSTALL
bokura no kawari ga inai nara
futsuu ni nagareteta ano nichijou wo
UNINSTALL UNINSTALL
kono te de owarasetaku naru
nanimo warui koto jyanai UNINSTALL

UNINSTALL UNINSTALL
kono hoshi no musuu no chiri no hitotsu dato
ima no boku niwa rikai dekinai
UNINSTALL UNINSTALL
osore wo shiranai senshi no youni
furumau shikanai UNINSTALL

Found english translation too, sounds kinda emo but still good:

UNINSTALL
Chiaki Ishikawa

It came from beyond the extreme reaches of our reality,
It came to laugh at our naive existences.
I am puzzled by the truth that slips through my hands even as I cover my ears.
Where in this thin body do I find the strength to stand?

Uninstall, uninstall.
I was told that I am just one of the countless specks of dust on this planet,
But that is something I cannot yet comprehend.
Uninstall, uninstall.
I have no choice but to pretend that
I am a warrior who knows no fear. Uninstall.

Our subconscious grows sharper without us realizing.
When I open my eyes to the contourless presence below my bed,
I am devoid of any feelings,
Except an impulse to destroy everything and anything.
Since I can’t even choose the season of my passing…

Uninstall, uninstall.
If there’s no one left to replace me,
Then I will take that regular daily life and
Uninstall, uninstall.
It makes me want to end everything with these hands.
It’s not a bad thing to uninstall.

Uninstall, uninstall.
I was told that I am just one of the countless specks of dust on this planet,
But that is something I cannot yet comprehend.
Uninstall, uninstall.
I have no choice but to pretend that
I am a warrior who knows no fear. Uninstall.

Overall, I like the song, I’ve always liked Chiaki’s music but didn’t really bother looking for it.

From what Xonz tells me, the anime’s worth watching, gonna do that when I have time.

Points of View.

Here I am, writing again.(Didn’t think I’d be writing again so quickly lol.) Anyway, a while ago in FFXI, some people in my linkshell were talking about how people are greedy, not helpful and only looking for their interest before others.

It kinda amazed me they didn’t know that earlier, it’s much worse in real life..So when I told them my outlook on life, people and relationships they were shocked, and told me “Life isn’t like that.” or “Not all people are bad.”, “You’re fucked up in the head.”.

I DO -agree- with them somewhat on what they said, and I agree almost 100% on me being fucked up in the head, lol. Anyway, I think I’m right too on what I said(Life experience.) There they were whining about people being greedy and selfish, so I said isn’t that how people is all the time? I mean, everyone is greedy in a way or another, doesn’t have to be in a bad way..But there’s so many faces of greedness or selfishness, it could look good, it could look bad..In the end it’s all the same.

I’m always saying, people either want something from you, or you want something from them, I know that sounds fucked up and wrong..But that’s how life is(Yeah I know there IS a few good people out there.).

A small story that happened to one of my friend’s that proves me right on this point, about 6 monthes ago or so, my friend wanted to tune out and improve his car(He owns a Golf GTI 2006 Coupe) and one of our friends knew someone who can tune out his car and make it better, we met the guy(I met him like 6 years ago and didn’t like much back then.) and he started talking about cars, parts and stuff will make anyone with a small penis and low selfesteem would pay fuckton of cash, make his ride look better, just to make himself feel like a man.

Anyway, he got him the parts, installed it for him, did all the hard work for my friend and only(Focus on “Only”) took around 1000$(Parts + installation wouldnt cost 600$ total, heh.)from him, I asked my friend “Why is he being so nice and helpful? Are you paying him for doing this?” My friend answered “No, because he said he loves cars, and he liked my car so he’s doing it for free.”(I laughed my ass@loves cars.) I’ve warned my friend about him; told him he’s after something else than friendship and car tuning(Incase I haven’t mentioned, my friend’s dad and uncle own a car workshop, and they have a good buisness going.). So after about 2 weeks and half, he told my friend he wants to talk to him about something, my friend met him and he told him he wants his uncle to lend him around 100.000$ to start a buisness…The story goes on but I’ll stop here cause I’ve proven my point and I don’t want make anyone look bad than they are.

As for people, and relationships, I’ve been criticized for not being social(Social as in having alot of friends, not as in not having social skills) because I have a very few friends that I’m always with, people don’t understand that those very few friends are the best people I found so far..

Who haven’t got backstabbed, hurt, or even abandoned by people they knew and thought they are friends? Almost no one, right?(Can’t really say you haven’t, think hard =P) Thought so.

I know they’re not perfect, and I know I’m not, no one is..But what makes it so important that they are trying, and I should too.

I’m always saying no expectations, no disappiontments. Yeah I know it sounds wrong but it works for me, because if you expect nothing from people, you wont get disappionted, I like keeping things real.

Little about me.

Hmm, this would be my first time to blog or write about myself..I guess I’m not that good at it or I’d have done it before. (; ¯―¯ )

Anyway, real name is Mishal(It’s pronounced Mish-al, not meeshaal -.-) I’m 22, born and raised in the Middle East.(Yeah I’m arab.)

Hm, I like drawing stuff, like Manga, Anime, funny pictures about my family and friends etc..Never been good with other types of art(like portraits and scenes)..I guess it’s because since I was like 5 years old I started drawing Anime I used to watch back then(Grendaizer, Combattler V, Mazinger, Astro boy etc).

As for sports..I like boxing, but I’ve stopped for like a year now since my coach left the country to go live with his family, it’s a great loss to us, but he’s happy over there and that’s good.

I like playing video games when I have the chance, mostly like MMORPGs, the one I play is FFXI(EMILY IS THE COOLEST GURL EVER!). It’s a fun game, could get frustrating and pain in the ass(Wasting time camping stuff, dying over and over because you can’t solo stuff there on a certain job etc.) but the people there I know, make the game worth it.

I <3 smoking hooka with my friends, usually go out every couple days or so and hangout,talk about stuff, make fun of each other, watch movies or soccer games, or even fighting matches! Q=(Ó.ÓQ)

Mhm, Iike lots of types of music, nothing in particular, I like J-pop, Rock, Rap music, Middle Eastern music, and some random stuff which I don’t know under which category they fall. (;°.°)

Well..I guess that’s all for now, I’ll write more when I have time .